Happy and sadness makes a day..: Questions bothering me..
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
& reporting on // 3:08 AM &


I have been thinking today... i have been talking and asking myself about this.. ' where is the skills of immunity that i have mastered when i needed it so much? have i forget to use it or simply because i have been decieving myself since that time when i did not even mastered the skill? '

The truth is, i have not yet mastered the skill. I have to decieved myself because i do not wish to be affected by wateva anyone out there's been doing or saying. Untill now, i still do not have the capability to possess the skill yet, I still have not give up on the pettiness as well as the anger and hatred i have been clinging on to. Though i have learned the truth that being angry required alot of strength and energy to do so, i have unknowingly violate it still.

I do not understand where the hell have the joyful moments experienced during the first few weeks as a class in W16F have gone to. I do not understand why do the real identity of each and everyone have surfaced so quickly. I do not understand what have caused those little conflicts thats bothering the once peaceful yet enjoyable class of W16F. I do not understand why did my classmates been dissapointing me again and again.

I, as part of the class, no longer felt the same way that i have been enjoying during the first few months in W16F. Everyone seems so cold and scary nowsadays. I really hope everything will be back to normal and how i wish this might be a nightmare that will be gone once the sun is up. I do not wish to see my beloved class turn into a dreaded class.

~minky is out~