Happy and sadness makes a day..
Friday, September 07, 2007
& reporting on // 5:39 AM &


Fuck

You know, there are many reasons why i want to come out to work now. stop studying. do whateva i like and work. because, theres this main reason and motivation that pushes me.

IT IS OFFICIALLY MINE MONEY AND MINE CAREER! I CAN SIMPLY DO WHATEVA I WAN WITH THOSE MONEY!

Oh... please, tell me that being filial is a sin. please tell me buying a CDs that she wanted so much is a sin. oh no, please.. don tell me that im not in the wrong. for i am, well, always, in their eyes and brains and probably everyone's memories..

yea right.. telling me that its because of my dad's money that im stuggling through every month. telling me that after my money is gone, i will start to starve myself. telling me that when i starve to sickness then waste their money on doctors. well, then why don you guys do me good (and yours too) to just let me suffer and die off? i probably dies off more peacefully and no responsibility, no guilt. oh.. how i wish i just die now. I really think that living in this world is a torture to me. when what i wanted is people happy and entertained, they think im noisy, irritating.

please whateva god up there. please just take me away. i just wan to reborn as a stone. or let my soul be destroy. i wont regret. for i no longer felt belonged to this world, to this universe.

so long bye bye.

~mickey left. i don care~