Happy and sadness makes a day..
Monday, November 12, 2007
& reporting on // 9:48 PM &



Lies...

I'm still trying to lie to myself. To think i have thought how to be noble. Something close shave happened on Sunday, lucky i manage to escape from it. How many times i have lied to others, but never to think i even lie BLINDLY to myself. I'm such a failure..

What i need now is a steel heart. Sometimes i consider myself lucky to let something happen. Contradicting, im blaming and remorsefully thinking it should not have happen.

I need a bucket of very cold water to wake myself up, wake from that tempting yet unnatural, unrealistic dream. The dream that never let me proceed but pulling me back. That stops me from advancing with time, that helps me wear that awful mask.

Someone please help me... pull me from that black hole before its too late.

but then well, if i were to woke up from that dream, i suppose i will be as noble as what i would be .. >.<

~mickey left, still dreaming~